I'm back baby!

It's been longer than I thought since I posted as I had two drafts that never made the cut. So in my memory, I'd posted but in reality... not! But I'm here now and will post.

After my last effort, I went into fear mode so far as exercise was concerned. I was so so so sore for about a week, and then only a little sore for another week and then I was ok. I went into "I'm too busy mode". I actually started to get back into a routine at some stage. In fact, three mornings in a row I got up and smashed out a workout, but then I let stress get to me (my husband was away and he's my other half in business as well as our personal life) and was a little muscle sore so gave myself a day off and never went back. You can see here how much Mr JDF loves and supports me...

Four days ago I found myself in a world of mental pain again. Not the black hole suicidal stuff, but dark enough that I knew I didn't like it... so when we had a day off yesterday, Bill took my kayaking. I was reluctant to go. In fact, I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay in my nice comfy bed with a kick ass book and fill my head with nonsense that was not real. Crazy! So I bitched a bit but I went because I knew I would like it and I did... I was on the water for 30 seconds before I said to Mr JDF,

"I'd forgotten how I love this! I'm so happy!" and we stayed out on the water for two hours. It was a perfect day for it as there was virtually no wind.

I'm not sure today but I'm all pumped about exercising again.

I think a major life lesson for me this time around is balance. I just don't have the knack for it. So it's up to me to watch people who are very good that way and see how they do it. I have a lot of awesome people surrounding me who would love to teach me so I'll just let them.

Have a great day and I will be around more often!