How we talk ourselves out of good stuff...

So I'm really enjoying life at the moment. I'm finding more balance in many things including exercise. But the other day I gave myself a good reminder lesson on how we humans talk ourselves out of awesome things.

I love running. Running gives me a feeling of freedom that I have never found anywhere else, it's easy and I've found runners to be extremely supportive as a group. Running is a whole body sport toning not just the legs, but arms, torso and even your neck! It can be as cheap or as expensive an exercise as you'd like.

The only thing that stops me from running regularly is my tight IT bands. They're tight because I sit at a computer for many hours of the day, then I go home and sit on a chair, and then I curl up on my side in bed, almost in a sitting position but lying down, and sleep that way all night. My legs are almost permanently drawn upwards! Overall I've not been very active and those IT bands have just shrunken and tightened. They're not the worst case I've ever heard (one of my friends had trouble getting in and out of her car hers were so tight!) but they're bad enough that my kneecap has been pulled out of alignment so that when I run, it rubs the wrong areas of my knees and hurts like a mofo.

So, I've been back on my old friend the foam roller and booked myself in for weekly massages to help loosen my legs. Running (slowly as I do) in short bursts is harmless so I decided to get back on the C25K bandwagon. I was really pleased with it last time. So I went to the C25K site lo and behold! They've moved with the times. There's apps so you can see where you've run. OMG! I love apps. http://www.c25k.com/

This is where the madness begins.

I decided that I didn't want the app on my work iPhone because I don't know how to just make the app work and not be interrupted by the phone. So then I decided I needed to get an iPod. So then I looked at second hand iPods because I like buying things second hand but most of them were totally munted and not too far off the price of new ones... which were over $250!!!! Exy... now things are tight here at the moment. I don't like to admit that because it feels like failure but everyone goes through that at time right? So I decided, that until the purse strings get looser I won't buy an iPod. So then I can't download the app. then I can't do c25K. So I can't run.

See how we do these things people? For fecks sake it's madness! Once I got back to 'Ah well. No running for me' and went to go and do whatever the hell it was that I was going to do, I just slapped myself! What? My conversation with my new BFF (me)

'Dear Jennie, you are a dingletwang. What on earth did you use to do C25K last time?'

'My mp3 player'

'Jennie, where is that mp3 player?'

'In my bottom drawer'

'Then use it dear Jenniiiie, dear Jenniiiie dear Jenniiiiiie'.

Doh... yes it still works and if it doesn't then there's a good two or three other old mp3 players in the house. They haven't been used for years but they still work.

AND I'm sure there's instructions on how to turn off the phone so it doesn't disturb me while I'm running on the work iPhone or on my personal android phone. One of the options would work I'm sure!

But that guys, that's how we talk ourselves out of things. Unless I'm alone. Am I alone here? It's true that I may have reached new levels of patheticness but you know, I slapped and sang myself out of it so booyeah to me!

Looking forward to running soon. Woo hoo! Looking forward to having the IT bands massaged? Ummm... no. But it feels so good when it's finished. 

xxxxx