Mr Tibialis Anterior, You Sir Are a Prick

Hey groovers!

I have hit a wall. After my spectacular crash I thought I did pretty well. I rode home and to work and back the next day. Right after the crash my leg hurt, a lot, but I couldn't see anything so I pretended it wasn't hurting at all. But two days later I can hardly walk. This has happened to me before.

For example, I started walking every day a few years back and had to stop for this same issue. That's happened quite a few times and causes me to cease exercising for awhile and sometimes I start again, but mostly I just get into "I'm not moving" which can last for years. It's time to break through this pattern!.

I didn't expect this with cycling. At the moment my legs are so sore that even walking hurts because it's hard to hold my foot up as I go. Flexing my foot upward towards my leg is excruciating.

My thinking is quite complex in many ways. Thanks to my history of depression and desire to escape it I've done a lot of reading and I do believe that often, if not all of the time, injuries like this are a sign of what is going on internally. For example, a very focused person who has decided on a single path of action, might get a sore neck which can link back to not wanting to look around for other paths lest they become indecisive/confused.

It's not uncommon for people who have been sedentary like myself to get this type of pain. It can be caused by muscle tightness in the Tibialis Anterior or the calf muscles. It actually just feels like the muscle has grown but the tissue that encases it has not. It's so tight! I'm sure it'll be fine.

I believe that my repeated problems with my anterior tibialis are my fear of moving forward. This week has been an incredible week. Everything has gone wrong and I have managed to stay positive mostly until today. However, when this happens I get so scared of what's going to happen in the immediate future that I just don't want to move. I can cope with right now, and that's it. I don't want to move forward at all, I just want to stay put.

So I called my friendly massage dude and have an appointment booked for Saturday. He's booked today and tomorrow I'm booked so Saturday it is. I'm looking forward to it! Brendan shares a lot of the same beliefs that I do about the body holding onto issues and gets where I'm coming from. He's also known me since I was 16 so knows my body and it's quirks well. He knows what's going on and is looking forward to helping me move through it. I hope he uses the dry needles. I love those things!

I'm noticing changes in my body and that's so wonderful! I'm noticing it most of all in my arms. Progress!

Do you have repetitive injuries?